Too Much To Say, But ...

So here am I, keep typing a sentence and then give a long press to the 'backspace' key. LOL. 


Seriously I have millions and billions of words I want to say ... but they just can't seem to be cooperative enough to get together and settle into series of paragraph. Blame them, not me. =="


I'm just disappointed with some things, annoyed with some things, yet Alhamdulillah I still have some reasons to keep myself happy. 
Yeah, there's always tests in every life :)


There are times even a best-seller writer also can't express feelings in words.


But Allah knows. Definitely. 


Of course, there are times I have to get through my hard times. :)


Reasons of being so awkward:


1. I have just realized that there's no use of playing hide and seek. They all gotta know the real thing, and what I am going to do will soon be heard. Even I myself can't seem to understand why am I feeling bad about it. I'm doing no craps or crime. It's a good thing for Islam, so what am I afraid of?


2.I am kinda feeling sad. That time when that person was away for some time, I'm just doing good in changing myself slowly. Now that the person is back, I just can't seem to cope up with it. Crap. I hate it when a person is avoiding me. It's better if you straight away block me. Yeah, deep inside, no matter how many times I say it, it's gonna be nothing because truly, I didn't mean it.


3.Some annoying people and things are driving me out of my mind. That people and things are just simply making me mad. Oh, of course I'm working hard not to spill out all my anger. They are my friends. I can't hurt them like that on purpose !


After all, no matter how good or how bad is our intention, there must be people who are not supportive.


There's no such thing as real and total justice in this worldly world. :)